Hello !
So, I have booked a trip to visit a friend in Paris and then another friend in Netherlands. I booked this trip during the year when I was deep in my studies and deebly needed to escape. And so I made the mistake to book for 8.5 days in Paris and 12 days in Netherlands (in Netherlands my friend group will be there that's why I booked the flights for so long initially). I have been thinking it for so long and now that the days are approaching I don't want to go for that long honestly. First of all I had a tough year, with some anxiety and I have been worrying for things I haven't had a problem with before this year. Let me note f.e. that I have done an erasmus for 6 months so it really feels odd that I worry about these 3 weeks but I do.
My problem is, I am ashamed of admiting to my friends to change the flights, sure, but ok I can do it. What I worry most about is not fighting my fears. I don't want to be limited due to non existent problems and fears. It's crazy to me that I am thinking about the airplane even though I have NEVER been afraid before, in any flight, not even close. I feel weaker than my past self and I don't know if the right call would be to fight that weakness or avoid the anxiety and just shorten my trip.
I did almost decide on cutting out 5 days by changing the flight so 8 and a half days in Paris and 7 days in Netherlands but even that feels long. I am really lost and I can't discuss this openly with my friends cause they will be in netherlands too and it feels like treason.
I do have more to say but I'll leave it at that to not make it too long.
Any opinions would help, my trip is almost here and I can't decide.
Thanks in advance!
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